내 블로그, 내 맘속에

오빠, 너 어딨니 지금?

2009-12-18T09:54:00.003+07:00

나의 기억 어딘가에 둥그마니 숨어있다
울컥 쏟아져 내려오는 너
기나긴 하루 한밤중 너도 나의 모습 떠오르는지

사랑이라 부르기에 우린 너무 멀어졌고
차마 잊기엔 아직은 너무 일러
오늘도 나 사랑과 이별사이를
눈물로 맴돌며 숨차게 너를 찾고 있어

바보야 어딨니 안 가면 안되니
너를 보낸 그곳에 아직도 난 서 있는데
머리에 가슴에 그 모습이 그리워서
또 한번 숨죽여 운다 널 사랑한 후에

오랜만에 문을 나서 바깥바람을 만지다
덜컥 다가선 외로움에 무너져
니 손에 끌려 다니던 정들은 거리
너 없는 슬픔에 찬걸음으로 집으로가

바보야 어딨니 안 가면 안되니
너를 보낸 그곳에 아직도 난 서있는데
머리에 가슴에 그 모습이 그리워서
또 한번 숨죽여 운다 널 사랑한 후에

널 불러보다가 뒤돌아보면 그 곳엔 널 닮은 추억만이
넌 아니 모르니 알면서 그러니

여태 잊지 못하고 아직 널 기다리는데
어떤 날 볼꺼니 내 심장이 멈출까봐
또 다시 그리워 운다 널 사랑한 후에

사랑한 후에 by 박효신

My memories that were hidden away somewhere
Suddenly pour forth thoughts of you
In the length of an entire day,
Would images of me ever come across your mind?

What we had was far from being called ‘love’
But to say that it was forgettable is impossible
Today I am again caught in between love and separation,
Spinning in tears, breathlessly searching for you

Fool, where are you? Can you not leave me?
I am still standing in the place where I let you go
In my mind and heart, I still yearn for you
I cry again until I lose breath
After loving you

It’s been such a long time since I’ve come outdoors to feel the blowing wind
I collapse into a sudden spell of loneliness,
As I walk on the familiar road you pulled me down by the hands
In the sadness of your absence, I count my steps as I head back home

Fool, where are you? Can you not leave me?
I am still standing in the place where I let you go
In my mind and heart, I still yearn for you
I cry again until I lose breath
After loving you

I try calling out for you, and turning around,
I see only memories of you

You know? Don’t you? If you know, why are you doing this?
Until now, I still haven’t forgotten you, I’m still waiting for you
Which day are you coming back on? I’m afraid my heart will stop beating
I cry again yearning for you
After loving you

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Oppa... I already miss you so much. Don't you know this?!
So, when are you gonna come? Please tell me on WHICH DAY?!
You Fool!!! Where are you now? Can't you just stay here with me?
If tomorrow comes, I’ll be able to see you, right?
Don't you ever think that you won't comeback,
because i won't stop waiting and yearning for you here.

감기야~~~ kapan sembuhnya?!

2009-12-13T18:33:00.003+07:00

hyaaaaa~~~ idung gw meler... bocor... banjiiiiir... tsunami *lebay modeON*
heran, setaon ini gw dah berapa kali kena flu ya?!
gw nya yg kurang jaga kesehatan atau flu nya aja yg naksir berat sm gw?! kkkkk

*sigh* ingus iniiii... menyiksaku... ~~maap ya rada jorok lol~~
obat gw dah abis, idung nya ttp aja meler T.T
what should i do???!!!

hey you!! flu, influenza, or whatever the name...
please... go go hurry!!! *syuuh syuuh*
it's sooooo annoying!!!!! >.<

fiuuuuh~~ i miss oppa who always told me to take the medicine when i get sick T.T
you're so fussy, oppa~~ kkkkkkkkkkk
Oppa get well soon, miss you badly.

한국에 가고싶다 hoping

2009-12-13T17:22:00.003+07:00

GOD, so far i've done my best...
so please bless it *knelt*

i'm begging on You, never get tired begging on You
please give me a good news that i expected on this december until next april
please give me a chance to prove myself
please give me a chance to make my mom proud

i promise to be MUCH MORE BETTER person than now
so *again* please bless it

I'm Back~ yow~~~ Rain Oppa modeON LOL

2009-12-13T17:04:00.001+07:00

Ah..... I miss my blog >.<
it's been so long since my last post

for all my friends who has posted some messages on my tagboard,
sorry... dah lama ga nengokin blog, jd ga kebales >.<
neomu mianhae~~~

yay~ i really miss my blog~ ~~and i miss KCM oppa lol~~

udah ah, lg pengen nulis 'welcome back greeting' aja kkkkkkkkkkk
i'll be back... to post another entry :p *geje modeON*

I Really Don't Care 'bout U Anymore~ Can I ?!

2009-07-15T09:29:00.002+07:00

2NE1 - I Don't Care

===================

[Hangeul Lyric]

[CL]
hey playboy
its about time
and your time’s up
I had to do this one for my girls you know
sometimes you gotta act like you don’t care
that’s the only way you boys learn

[Minji]
니 옷깃에 묻은 립스틱은 나는 절대로 용서못해
매일 하루에 수십번 꺼져있는 핸드폰
변하지 않을것만 같아 oh oh

[Dara]
그저 친구라는 수많은 여자친구
날 똑같이 생각하지마 I won’t let it fly
이제 니맘대로해 난 미련을 버릴래
한때 정말 사랑했는데 oh

[CL]
가끔씩 술에 취해 전활걸어 지금은 새벽 다섯시반
넌 또 다른 여자의 이름을 불러 no

[Bom]
I don’t care 그만할래 니가 어디에서 뭘 하던
이제 정말 상관 안할게 비켜줄래
이제와 울고불고 매달리지마
cause don’t care e e e e e e
cause don’t care e e e e e e

[Minji]
cause don’t care e e e e e e
cause don’t care e e e e e e
Boy I don’t care

[Minji]
다른 여자들의 다리를 훔쳐보는
니가 너무너무 한심해
매일 빼놓는 커플링 나 몰래 한 소개팅
더이상 못참을것같아 oh oh oh

[Dara]
넌 절대 아니라는 수많은 나의친구
넌 늑대란 친구들까지 타일렀지만
차라리 홀가분해 너에게 난 과분해
내 사랑이라 믿었는데 oh oh

[CL]
오늘도 바쁘다고 말하는 너 혹시나 전화해봤지만
역시 뒤에선 여자 웃음소리가 들려 oh no

[Bom]
I don’t care 그만할래 니가 어디에서 뭘 하던
이제 정말 상관 안할게 비켜줄래
이제와 울고불고 매달리지마
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
cause I don’t care e e e e e e

[Dara]
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
Boy I don’t care

[Minji]
난 너땜에 울며 지새던 밤을 기억해 boy
더 후회할 널 생각하니 맘이 쉬웠네 boy
날 놓치긴 아깝고 갖기엔 시시하잖니
있을때 잘하지 너 왜 이제와 매달리니

[CL]
속아준 거짓말만해도 수백번
오늘 이후로 난 남자 울리는 bad girl
이젠 눈물 한방울 없이 널 비웃어
사랑이란 게임 속 loser
무릎꿇고 잡을 수 있니
아님 눈 앞에서 당장 꺼져

[Bom]
I don’t care 그만할래 니가 어디에서 뭘 하던
이제 정말 상관 안할게 비켜줄래
이제와 울고불고 매달리지마
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
Boy I don’t care

==============================

[Translation]

[CL]
Hey playboy
It’s about time
And your time’s up
I had to do this one for my girls you know
That’s the only way you boys learn

[Minzy]
I can’t ever forgive you for that lipstick on your collar
Every day, your phone’s always off
It doesn’t seem like you’re going to change oh oh

[Dara]
All those girlfriends you call “friends”
Don’t think of me in the same way as them, I won’t let it fly
From now on, do as you want, I’m going to stop caring
For some time I really loved you but oh

[CL]
Sometimes you get drunk, and call me, now it’s 5:30 am
Again you say another girl’s name no

[Bom]
I don’t care, I’ll stop caring about what you’re doing wherever you are
From now on I really don’t care, I’ll get out of the way
From now on don’t come to me and cry, and cling on
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
cause I don’t care e e e e e e

[Minzy]
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
Boy I don’t care

[Minzy]
Stealing glances at other girl’s legs
You’re so so hopeless
Everyday you take off your couple ring, and secretly go on a blind date
I don’t think that I’ll be able to take it anymore oh oh oh

[Dara]
My friends say that you’re not really worth it
You even went to your wolf-like friends for advice but
I’d rather keep it simple, I’m too good for you
I believed you were my love but oh oh

[CL]
Today you said you were busy, I tried phoning you but
As expected, in the background I heard a girl’s laugh oh no

[Bom]
I don’t care, I’ll stop caring about what you’re doing wherever you are
From now on I really don’t care, I’ll get out of the way
From now on don’t come to me and cry, and cling on
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
cause I don’t care e e e e e e

[Dara]
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
Boy I don’t care

[Minzy]
Because of you, I remember crying till dawn boy
I regret every time I think about you when my heart was too easy, huh boy?
I’m too good to throw away and too boring to have
You should’ve treated me better when we were together why are you clinging to me now

[CL]
You fooled me with your lies hundreds of times
From today on, I’ll be a bad girl who makes guys cry
Now without a single tear, I’ll laugh at you
Loser who’s inside a game called love
Get on your knees and take me back
If not, get out of my sight right now

[Bom]
I don’t care, I’ll stop caring about what you’re doing wherever you are
From now on I really don’t care, I’ll get out of the way
From now on don’t come to me and cry, and cling on
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
cause I don’t care e e e e e e
Boy I don’t care

Translations: GEE & jjangchoo @ ygladies

==============================

Song for this week~
if only i could be like that =.=
really really don't care bout him, like i don't feel anything for him
not that easy~~~ i'm still trying >.<

but anyway, i like this part, "I’d rather keep it simple, I’m too good for you
I believed you were my love but oh oh"

Should i continue that?! hmmm, "but ... "

no need to~~~ kkkkkk

콘서트 7080 Real Charity Working

2009-07-05T12:14:00.012+07:00

Asia Children Charity, 콘서트 7080 at Gedung Manggala Wanabakti On July 3, 2009.

I was there on that day, working hard while became a staff of that event

*without any pay* bnr2 beramal lol.

Geez, such a tiring day >___<,

fortunately got some kind like doping, ㅋㅋㅋ

Happy happy happy *seengganya ngurangin cape lah ya*

Yup, it's bcoz my team's supervisor, Mr. Danny <3

Lucky that i got that job, to helped the guests find their own seats, ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ.

Yeah, even it was a bit tiring, but wothed to know him, huhuhu.

It's him,

so close~~~ hampir nempel~~~ *blushing2*
Cool, isn't he?! handsome? for me yes, ㅋㅋㅋ

Mature!!! hehehehe

of course he's very kind to us n he speaks Bahasa very well *impressed*

Mirip Song SeungHoon? Kata gw sih dikit...

lbh mirip Kim SungSoo ^^

or maybe Daniel Henney *versi Korea asli* ㅋㅋㅋ

Ah~~~ Sonsaengnim... i'll be missin' u so much lah~~~ >___<

hope we can meet again someday, kpn2 maen ke hansamo~~~ *ngarep modeON*

eh ada 1 lg denk doping nya... yg ni chubby2 bkn gemes~~~

Kata yg laen sih mirip kangin, iy gtu?!

I don't think so, but he's totally so cute ^^ *manggut2*

I forget his name =.=;

He could speak Bahasa too, same like Mr. Danny *heran gw bljr dmn sih?! lol*

ekspresi nya cengo, ㅋㅋㅋ but his hand~~~ arrrrgggghhh *pengsan*

nyehehehe, pengorbanan bolak balik kantor BKC bwt briefing terbayar oleh 2org ini rofl

ga terlalu dongkol lah walau agak sdkt ditelantarkan

~~n no pay of course xP *t-shirt selembar aja suruh balikin* =.=;~~

Okay~~~ It's Hansamo Family

Guys... Manse!!!

My Korean Lesson Day

2009-06-29T10:41:00.002+07:00

Yesterday i learned bout numbers and the units in Korean.
Jyah~~~ I'm very poor in memorizing the numbers T.T
especially for native Korean >.<
difficult? of course i think, kkkkk *slapped by eonni*

Honestly I couldn't really concentrate yesterday. It was so noisy in my class >___<
Not bcoz of us but someone played the music too loud outside.

2 weeks after i'll have an exam.
10 chapters at once =.=;
Wish I'll can do all of my best, FIGHTING!!!!!

I'm really NOT in my mood >__<

2009-06-27T11:18:00.004+07:00

Dunno what to write coz i'm really not in my mood >___<

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klsfnpewohewpovnwepofpowugtpewjtlwebhfpowyheo-rpuw
sekfhewogjpwelnvpeyrgopehgklrevboiwehofjewjtglwhf-wjw
kfbiewytiejtopenrgklbsiugvholnfg;lewngpohpfjwq[rpjqw'p;h
lsjvpoehgoenwl;gnlashvowerwj[tgnel;gnpoeyfpowjr;'jwpj[
khfoiewytpewjt[eiykwepjglwenvlewhofhewpotjwpuet[qwput[q

*sigh* enough to describes what's in my mind
Gini deh klo penyakit moody techan lg kambuh =.=

Just wanna see FTI >___<

이용대 짱

2009-06-26T17:28:00.006+07:00

credit pic to LYD Cy

I like those sentences, describes Lee YongDae extremely.

"이 세상에서 가장 큰
용기와 능력으로
대한민국을 이끌어가는 힘"

"The greatest in this world,
with courage and ability,
Power leads The Republic of Korea."

Gyaaaaa, recently i become crazy with Lee YongDae
of course u know who is he, right?!

He's a Korean badminton player *for u u dunno who is he xP*

Good looking, cute, also looks so cool, sexy~~~
of course he's very talented n skillful too
aish, i can't take my eyes of him >_____<

용대야~~~ 사랑해, 너무 너무 사랑해 <3

Pko nya saia sdg menggila YongDae,

lg demen2 nya sam Yongdae, lg cinta bgt sama Yongdae >___<

dgr2 dy mw tanding lg tgl 30 Juni ni ...

tp di Andong City, Korea T.T *desperate smbl guling2*

yah~~~ tak apalah ... aq ttp mendukung Yongdae

이용대 ~ 화이팅!!!!!

Let's Smile Like a Doll

2009-06-25T12:05:00.007+07:00

인형처럼

웃고 있어요 매일 웃고 있죠 눈물이 날까봐

그렇께 매일 웃어요

웃는 인형처럼 같은 표정으로 하염없이 난 웃어요

매일 그렇께

아무 일 없이 잘 지내요 친구도 많이 사귀었어요

너무 바빠서 긴 하루가 빠르게도 지나가요

다른 사람도 생겼어요 그대를 닮은 사람이죠

미안하지만 ~~그녀를~~ 그남자를 보면서 그대를 추억하고있죠

웃고있어요 매일 웃고 있죠 눈물이 날까봐

그렇게 매일 웃고 있죠

웃는 인형처럼 같은 표정으로 하염없이 난 웃어요

~~그녀와~~ 그님자와 둘이

취미도 많이 생겼어요 ~~그녀와~~ 그남자와 함께 하고 있죠

그대와 하던 그 모든 일 들을 ~~그녀와~~ 그남자와 함께 하고 있죠

사랑해줘요 날 사랑해줘요 웃는 내 얼굴이

~~그녀는~~ 그남자는 너무나 좋데요

참 나쁜 사람을 많이 사랑해준

~~그녀는~~ 그남자는 내 맘 모르고

웃고 있어요 매일 웃고 있죠 눈물이 날까봐

그렇게 매일 웃어요

웃는 인형처럼 같은 표정으로 하염없이 난 웃고만 있어요

내 맘은 그대를 못 잊어요 평생 숨긴 채 살아도

나 벌을 받는데도 내 마음은 그댈 못놔요

웃고 있지만 매일 울고 있죠

아무도 모르게 그렇게 매일 울어요

감춘 슬픔들이 혹시 새나갈까

웃고 있는걸 아나요 인형처럼

인형처럼 Like a Doll by FT Island

I'm smiling. I'm always smiling because I'm afraid that I'll cry.

I'm smiling like this everyday.

Like a smiling doll, I'm always smiling the same smile.

Like this everyday.

I'm fine. I made many new friends too.

I'm so busy that long day goes by fast.

I also met someone new. He reminds me of you.

I'm sorry to say but I'm remembering you through him.

I'm smiling. I'm always smiling because I'm afraid that I'll cry.

I'm smiling like this everyday.

Like a smiling doll, I'm always smiling the same smile

with him.

I also have many new hobbies. I'm enjoying them with him.

I'm doing everything that I used to do with you with him.

Love me. Please Love me.

He says he really likes my smiling face.

He, who loved many bad girls,

is smiling without knowing how I feel.

I'm always smiling because I'm afraid that I'll cry.

I'm smiling like this everyday.

Like a smiling doll, I'm always smiling the same smile.

My heart can not forget you, even if I keep it hidden forever.

Even if I get punished, my heart can not let you go.

Even though I'm smiling, I'm crying everyday.

I'm crying like this everyday in secret.

Do you know that I'm smiling like a doll

because I'm afraid that my hidden sadness will show?

=====

Luv dis song so much,

feel lyk i wanna crynk evertym when i hear it T.T

kinda represent to me

can't 4get dat person, can't let dat person go

but i got to >.<

still have to smile like a doll

talk n laugh lyk nothin happen

그래도, 내 맘은 너무 아파요

그래도, 내 맘속에 매일 울고

그래도, 그남자는 내 사랑을 몰라

자꾸 재채기가 나

2009-06-24T09:18:00.001+07:00

Jyah~~~ I keep sneeze in the morning everyday.
Dunno why, but *nyaaaa~~~* a little bit bother >o<

I thought that i was catch a cold, errr ... not really,
maybe it's just an allergy coz it's relapse only in the morning.

Should i go to a doctor to examined it?
My friend said, be careful bout swine flu. Yay, I'm scared.
But i'm so sure that it's just an allergy like Jeong Woo Oppa said, nyu nyu nyu~~~

C'mon techannie~~~ U'll be better~~~ FIGHTING!!!

Who's The Parasite? o.0

2009-06-23T19:23:00.002+07:00

"Pergi kau ke ujung dunia ! Dehidrasi di Gurun Sahara ! Hilang di Segitiga Bermuda !
Pergi kau ke luar angkasa ! Hipotermia di kutub utara ! Hilang di Samudra Antartika !"

Those are cuts from a song sung by Gita Gutawa entitled Parasite.
Yeah, lately kinda like with this song. I'm not a fan of Gita Gutawa honestly xDDD,
but i think this song sounds so cute n ear catchy.

Oops, i won't discussed bout the song but the lyric.

Kinda suitable for me if i remember bout my "nappeun namja"
Yes, i still talk bout that guy *aish*
bored? Sorry... ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

Recently we, can i say intensively *i think* chatted on YM.
So, apa hubungannya sama lagu Gita Gutawa?! xP

"Minta dibayarin, minta ditraktirin, minta dianggarin, minta dijemputin,
minta ditelponin, minta di sms-in, minta dibeliin."

Yup, he's a parasite !!!!! Aaaaaarrrrrgggghhhh >.< *if i can call him cruelly*
Few days ago he asked me to call him.
He said ..., "Tries, telpon aq donk, ada yg mw q ceritain."
What?! Geez~~~ I bet that he wants to talk bout his fiancee again *curhat ceritanya*
Canda Lo!!! 진짜~~~ who has a concernment bout the problems?!
Thx lah, gw slalu jd tmpt sampah lu yg berharga =.=;

That's why i think this song is soooo click on me.
"Go to the end of the world! Dehydration in Sahara Desert! Lost in Bermuda Triangle!
Go to the out of space! Hypothermia in the North Pole! Lost in the Antartica!
~~and Don't Return!!!"~~

Nyaaaa, i don't have a heart to say that words.
"Don't return!!!" Naah... I can't I can't I can't >.<
I still regard him as my friend, one of my best friend.
Consider that we've shared many things together in the past.
Yah, seengganya gw msh bs sabar ngadepin dy n blm jd bom atom yg siap meledak xD.

난 잘할께, 친구

2009-06-20T09:37:00.000+07:00

I become so stupid to always waitin for him >.<
jyah~~~ i'm stupid, yes I AM!!!

why it is so hard to 4get him????
aish~~~ i wanna be his best friend again like in the past,
when i didn't feel any burden to talk n tease each other.
Really... i miss that moment. Is that wrong?!
Should i call him? or maybe sms? *sigh*
yeah, he never change. He told me to called him when i need sum1 to share.

God Damn!!! I've run with all of my strength,
but still too hard to throw him away from my mind my heart n my life.
Even when i close my eyes, it's still bout him who stuck in my head >.<

With difficulty n struggle, but slowly n sure
One day... I'm sure it will fade away.
Forgetting may be sad,
but that sadness may be better than my pain.
It may be better ...

Hope someday ... when we meet again,
i'll be more stronger to face n smile to him comfortably
to say "안녕 내 사랑... 어떻게 지내니, 내 친구야?"

till that day ... take care
난... 잘할께

Nyaaaa~~~ i need YongDae right now, ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
I wanna watch his match, maybe it could make me feel better.
Does sum1 know is he in semi final or not? hope he is ^o^ ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

My Stupid Conversation

2009-06-19T11:08:00.000+07:00

Dunno how to express my feelin right now.
Do i have to say that i'm happy?! o.0 no no no!!! i don't think so.
It's complicated!!! yeah, totally complicated.

That 'nappeun namja' *sigh* finally he greeted me.
Of course after long long long n very long time he was only silence on me >.<
i thought that he has forgotten that i'm still his friend.
Maybe, i'm little bit happy that he still remeber bout me n myself.
But that's not enough to heal my pains, bcoz HE is the one who cause these pains!!!!!
And... why he has to talked bout his fiancee with me?! 0.o
C'mon, i didnt interest with that topic. At least not right now.

Geez~~~ damn damn damn!!!
Honestly i'm not ready yet to have chat with him. That's why i couldn't talk more as usual.
Even Tami n Fitri said that i should talk with him no more, but what can i do?!
Mikan said that i had to wait till i could face n talked to him comfortably.
Till all of these sadness n pains fade away. That's right, but too long to wait.

아~~~ 죽겠다 죽겠어 =.=

Ok, i'm not the one who started that conversation.
He was he was he was!!!! Aish~~~ 진짜!!!

그러나,
너... 아직도 내 맘속에

Techan N Blablabla-ing

2009-06-18T12:04:00.000+07:00

Start *again* with blogspot n this's the new one xP.
Ya ya ya, i made the new one, because the old one is too old LOL

I dunno what to write right now.
*sigh* Its still new, empty, blank, or whateva the name.
So I'll try to update soon n write more later.

Sorry too for my bad English, gramatically errors n else.
Still learning in English ^^

GtoG, kkkkkk
SeeYa~~~ <3

내 블로그, 내 맘속에

오빠, 너 어딨니 지금?

감기야~~~ kapan sembuhnya?!

한국에 가고싶다 *hoping*

I'm Back~ yow~~~ *Rain Oppa modeON* LOL

I Really Don't Care 'bout U Anymore~ *Can I ?!*

콘서트 7080 *Real Charity Working*

My Korean Lesson Day

I'm really NOT in my mood >__<

이용대 짱

Let's Smile Like a Doll

자꾸 재채기가 나

Who's The Parasite? o.0

난 잘할께, 친구

My Stupid Conversation

Techan N Blablabla-ing

한국에 가고싶다 hoping

I'm Back~ yow~~~ Rain Oppa modeON LOL

I Really Don't Care 'bout U Anymore~ Can I ?!

콘서트 7080 Real Charity Working